…And Then I Panicked

My right eye fluttered open and I began to slowly take in my surroundings in a drug induced haze. I heard shuffling and beeping all around me. My left eye wouldn’t open but out of the corner of my right I kept catching glimpses of blue racing back and forth. Occasionally a mass of blue would approach me and speak but I was only vaguely aware of what they were saying. I turned my head slightly and saw my spousal equivalent hovering in the corner. He had written Billy Loves Sarah in big letters on the white board facing my bed. I couldn’t summon the words to speak to him, to tell him I loved him too. I just laid there and started taking a physical and mental inventory. I reached with my right hand and felt around on my chest. There were wires coming from everywhere, including one that I was pretty sure was coming out of my neck. I had already noticed that my left eye wouldn’t open but at the time it didn’t seem too alarming. As my hand made its way up my face and toward my hairline I began to feel stubble… AND THEN I PANICKED! They shaved my head! The doctor told me he wouldn’t; that they could use an old incision. And yet I kept feeling around and I had no hair on top of my head. I felt a tube jutting out of my scalp but that didn’t even bother me. As I ran my hand over my head, panic turned to horror as I realized, um, they forgot to shave half of it off! So not only was I a hideous mess with tubes and lines in every orifice, but they had only shaved half of my hair, leaving me looking like Bozo the Clown. Really? They couldn’t have just finished the job while they were up there?

It was a full week before I could go home and have Billy shave the rest off for me. It was a full year before I had a full head of hair again. But it has been two years and counting since my last chronic, debilitating migraine and despite the hair thing…I have to say I am pretty damn lucky!

Me and SO - 1 month post op - Felt a bit like a deranged elf!

With hair...and a new outlook on life!

Writing Prompt by Mama Kat!

6 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Judy Harper
    Sep 29, 2010 @ 15:58:08

    You had my attention from the get go! If you no longer have migraines, that makes the hair loss worth it. I’m going to look around more on your site. I’m over from SITS, hope you have a great evening!

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  2. Joanne
    Sep 29, 2010 @ 16:26:45

    Wow! What a story! Glad to hear your surgery helped. At least you didn’t lose your hair for nothing. 🙂

    And what a sweet gesture from your SO!!! That made me tear up.

    Reply

  3. Sarah
    Sep 29, 2010 @ 21:48:27

    Thanks ladies! It was rough but so worth it 🙂 Haven’t had a headache in almost 2 years.

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  4. Kirsty
    Sep 29, 2010 @ 22:52:04

    And then I panicked just reading your panic!!!! haha. Goodness… what a story!

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  5. eisangel3
    Sep 30, 2010 @ 13:53:16

    I love the hat!! And what a lovely message to wake up to.

    Reply

  6. pegbur7
    Sep 30, 2010 @ 15:50:06

    Very dramatic post. Very engaging yet horrifying. I am so sorry you had to go through that. Great post though.

    Stopping by from Mama Kat’s.

    Reply

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